See you Later

so i'm sitting here in bed and i was looking for a video on youtube and found the goodbye video for pastor todd. and it made me really think when its time for me to say good bye. I mean I don't know whats gonna happen when the year is done but I was already feeling teary eyed. Like I'm really not gonna be able to hold back the tears when its time to do it. Like will i say good bye or will I say see you later. How can I say good bye to all the people who have impacted me? who have leaned on me? who have searched for me?
I really don't want to say good bye, but rather, see you later.

Sleeping In

i love sleeping in. I really do. the warmth of the blankets, the comfort of the pillow and just knowing i don't have to rush in the morning. For a while now I haven't been able to sleep past 8:30. And that used to be early for me. So this morning was no different, except I felt anxious and nervous this morning. I know that in a couple months I will be having my last night in my bed. I will wake up that morning get ready to go to the airport and have to say good bye. Its a nervous feeling and thought knowing that its coming by so fast.
Thanksgiving is right around the corner, than Christmas and once new years rolls around i know that date will be just a couple days away. I won't wake up to take the dogs out or hear Naomi outside. I won't see the TV in front of me or want to move the pillows next to me. I'm going to be living another adventure, doing different things in the morning. Sleeping in another bed, hearing different noises, seeing different people.
I know everything will be OK. I hope. Yeah it will. it better.

The Unknown

I just changed my blog name, which i thought was pretty rad that I was able to do cause i didn't think I could do but i was able to, so i did. ANYWAY, so i'm supposed to be asleep, cause its late, but i couldn't cause being able to hang out with some of the Hillsong guys just got me really thinking like A LOT. Like how will my time be? Will I meet good friends? Will I be ok with my roommates? Will I be ok financially? spiritually? emotionally?
I know these are normal questions and I know in the future when I'm there and i read back on this I'll most likely laugh like...why were you so worried?! Everything is OK!
I know I have about 2 1/2 (or less) months left and I know they are coming by super quick! I have Qantas frequent flier number now! But I do have miles on Emirates which i think is better...but whatevers cheaper! (reminds me: i should check the prices on Emirates)
ANYHOO, there are so many things to do like i desperately need to do this garage sale cause i need MONEY...and i don't want to ask my parents for more money cause they've already done so much, so I'm trying...really...to save my coins and any spare cash i got.
But I'm just thinking and thinking, like I wish I was there now so i can put the thinking to rest but then don't want to leave just yet because there are so many things i gotta do before I go.