Dont Fit In

Today I wanted to vent on here. I had all my words all ready to just go at it. I was gonna say some stuff that i knew would make them feel guilty or bad. I had words for people. I had words....
Than I went to church today, I honestly didn't want to, I wasn't feeling up for it. It sometimes hard to go to church by yourself, to sit alone. But i did, I went. On my way there I walked with this girl Aliona, shes in my class and we talked on the way to church. And we parted ways and I sat. Worship was great, like always, and then Pastor Brian was there and gave the message. He was talking about life and living. That life is too short and its too long. But in this life it goes by like a vapor and we can never get it back. He spoke about living your dreams and pursuing your passions. It was a great message that had me in tears at the end, because he confirmed to me that I needed to be here. As much as the opportunity here is amazing its hard for me right now.
I spoke to a friend of mine that was just reaffirming to me that I am here for a reason. That no matter how bad I feel or sad there are people there that love me. That even if i feel lonely physically, there are people who pray for me, care for me, and love me. After chatting and laughing it did make me feel heaps better.
Do i get lonely sometimes? Yes, of course. Is it hard for me to make friends? Unfortunately, yes. Charlene gave this to me 2 years ago and its still hard to read now but its what im still going through:
I know you want to be accepted by others, but you were not made to fit in. You, My princess, were created to stand out. Not to draw attention to yourself, but to live the kind of life that leads others to Me. Remember, it's your choices that will pave your path to life. I will not force you to do anything. I have given you a free will to walk with Me or to walk away from Me. I want you to know that you can put on your crown at any time and let people know that you belong to Me. You have a royal call on your life. I want you to remember you wear the crown of everlasting life, and through you I will do abundantly more than you would ever dare to dream.