This is my Dilemma

I think that I might still be jetlagged cause I’m getting tired so much earlier! Today was eventful yet uneventful. I woke up and went to the gym down here. I got there and all the treadmills were conveniently out of service, so I did the step machine and the bicycle. I didn’t want to push too hard cause I hadn’t worked out in awhile…but I do want to go tomorrow. So I got back and ate an egg and muffin. We still don’t have a refrigerator…so water it was. Than when I got out of the shower I found out my 3^rd roommate came! Shes from France and has a hard time with English…but us Americans will grow on her. My other roommate moved into my room, which is fine by me cause she doesn’t have much clothes so I get a lot of the closet! (just kidding…kind of)

I went to the pharmacy and got myself a $5 fruit salad (small) and it was just what I needed…it was quite good and refreshing. I came back to the flat and got ready for youth service. This was the first time I went to Wildlife (high school ministry). I was having déjà vu cause it was just like Urgency. At 7pm they start a 30 minute countdown and they play games on one side of the room to try to get all the kids in there…lets just say they play rough! But I liked it…it was super crazy. Then they had praise and worship which was amazing…and they were promoting their summer camp big time! Summer camp was the topic of everything tonight, which I understand cause its next week and they want everyone to rego (register). But something that kind of hit me was that during the service, as great as it was, I was really wanting to be a part of the young adult ministry (18-25) but not be someone that attends and receives from them, but someone that leads them. Hillsongs young adult ministry is led by a couple that are 29 years old…(hello?!) and the wife, April, led the service on Wednesday and it was sooo good. Like super simple, short, yet appealing and powerful…I was blown away.

So is my dilemma stemming from I’ve done high school for so long…I’m tired now? Or is it do I think I can lead a young adult ministry because I want to be with older people? Am I questioning this out of tiredness and egoism or God? That is my dilemma of now.

Ever since coming here I’ve questioned so many things…great. And now I can’t find my ipod…Well earlier I did skype with my sister and Naomi…Lord I miss that little girl. But it makes me feel better that she is good and happy with her spaced out teeth. I had pizza for dinner…a small for $10..it was pretty good (no round table) but im just kind of sick of water now…lets pray that we can get a fridge soon!!!