I should just work out!

Its thursday here and i'm sitting in the cafe just had a fresh orange, apple, and watermelon juice. I've had a pretty revealing couple of days. I had this class yesterday and the teacher gave me a piece of paper and told us to read the question and without thinking about the answer just write the first thing that comes to mind. They were questions that dealt with God and how i really see him. Well lets just say i realized that i don't trust God as much as i should. And its mostly because i think i can control things. Even in those things that i know i can't control...i still try to control them. So...with that in mind...i have a lot of soul searching to do!
Another thing is something i've been struggling with. And so i look in the mirror or even at myself and i just don't like my stomach. Granted its not the worst but its not the best but i just HATE like HATE working out and running. I came in this morning and saw a friend of mine who runs 5 miles a day and she looks awesome...and i'm like i can look like that! But then realized how much i hate running! Ugh such a struggle for me...I know its not a bog deal to some people and you may be reading this and say..."um just run!" Well for me its WAY easier said than done...but i'm gonna try to get the strength to do it...or just get myself up in the morning because i think if i go in the morning i'm more likely to do it because when i was training and did it in the morning i felt soooo much better throughout the day...(ok i'm just thinking out loud now).
There are just some things i need to get in order that i want to do them i just need someone to whip me into shape. But I know i have the discipline to do them cause i've done it before...its just getting the motivation and desire to go with it.
I'm so glad tomorrows friday, i'm tired, this whole week has gone by so fast and i have homework due monday!! So i'll probably work on that tonight and have it done by Saturday..hopefully. I know this blog isn't too exciting...Well maybe i should add that I have been eating more fruits and different fruits...well ok just 1 different fruit, i heard that eating a grapefruit with your meals will help lose weight so i've been eating grapefruit...will it work? who knows, its worth a shot...I KNOW I SHOULD JUST WORK OUT!!